God Stories of Healing: Sue’s story
Today’s post is Sue’s story about standing against fear.
What do you do when Fear takes a hold?
Jonah was 5 weeks old when I got the call that he had turned blue, was struggling to breathe and had been rushed to hospital.
Fear is a great enemy! It sucks life from you and renders you powerless! I went to look after my other grandson, so both parents could be at the hospital. I felt God saying there is a call and destiny on Jonah’s life…. he will get better!
The Consultant gravely warned them this would get much worse before it got better, and to be ready for that. Fear was draining me, but I kept hearing the song, “Sing a little louder,” and was singing it…. quietly….. “Sing a little louder,” so I sang a little louder. “Sing a little louder….” and as I did, my grandson started to sing it with me!
The next day we were told Jonah was rapidly going down and he may have to be transferred to Birmingham Children’s Hospital for intensive care. “Sing a little louder….” My grandson sang every time with me, so I made up words…. ‘”Fear has lost its grip on me. Sing… (shaking with anxiety)….virus die and sickness flee …sing…. in the presence of my Enemy… sing a little louder…”
Refusing to partner with Fear
Honestly, it didn’t feel like Fear had lost its grip on me. I felt so very afraid, but I refused to partner with it and meditate on the “what ifs”. The Doctors were trying to wean Jonah off the oxygen and said it could take days. He dipped and was struggling again.
Again the white hot fear slipped in. I tried a feeble song: “Even when I feel I’m surrounded, then I’m surrounded by you.” The worship lifted me, but it was such an effort to push through. I declared again I would not choose to partner with fear. Jonah was put back on the oxygen. I felt helpless, powerless to change any of this. Now he had pneumonia and a nasty respiratory virus, and was put on antibiotics.
Don’t take “no” or “can’t” as an answer
I felt God say: “Speak life over Jonah, call it down!” So I did! “I speak life over you Jonah. I speak the very breath of Heaven into you. Be healed. Be restored. For there is a calling and destiny over you that you would know God from a young age, even without being taught. That you will never believe that you can’t do or achieve something.”
Within 25 mins, I got news that Jonah’s oxygen was up to 93% on just air. Amazing! More Lord! By the next day he was both off oxygen and off the assisted air pressure. Within hours he had the feeding tube out, and after 9 days he was discharged from hospital! 3 months on my grandson Jonah is thriving and I’m so thankful to God. Thankful that we don’t have to be controlled by negative thoughts, or be bound by fear. We just need to hold on to God and to what He’s given us.
Thank you Sue